Chapter 58: sBecause I Want to Stay with You a bit Longer.” 4 (1/2)
Chapter 58: “Because I Want to Stay with You a bit Longer.” (4)
Translator: Guy Gone Bad
“Qinghuan, something on your mind?” a grandfatherly and gentle voice was heard from above his head. Yu Qinghuan hurriedly stood up and greeted, “Teacher Wang.”
Wang Zhensheng waved his hand and sat beside him, “don’t stand on ceremony with me. Finally you got a little time. I think we can have a talk.”
“It’s nothing actually,” said Yu Qinghuan with his eyes lowered, “it’s just some things I can’t think through.”
“You are young. Why bother?” Wang Zhensheng shook his head, “Qinghuan, this is your advantage but also your disadvantage. When I was your age, I would do whatever I want. Anyway I am young. I can start over even if I fail.”
After a pause, seeing Qinghuan still looked in low spirits, Wang Zhensheng didn’t push him but changed another topic, “what’s your plan after shooting The Line of Life and Death?”
“I want to go to the Grand Theater to learn and improve my acting skills. And then I’m gonna shoot How to Love you,” Yu Qinghuan told him his plan he had arranged for himself, but still looking a little confused, “after that, I still got no plan.”
“I remember I asked you last time,” The smile on Wang Zhensheng’s face gradually gone, he said to Yu Qinghuan seriously, “I asked if you hate acting, but you didn’t answer me. What if I ask you again today?”
Yu Qinghuan also thought about it very carefully for a while and answered, “I don’t hate acting. I just…kind of hate this circle.”
One could say he was really bold enough to say such words. If others heard of it, they would turn up their noses at it and sniggered that Yu Qinghuan was still wet behind the ears. But Wang Zhensheng just nodded and didn’t judge, but asked, “Why is that?”
This time Yu Qinghuan answered without even thinking, “because it’s too fickle and utilitarian. And in this circle, I feel like every move of mine is under people’s eyes. I can’t do things I want to do. I have no freedom at all.”
“Qinghuan,” Wang Zhensheng looked at him and said earnestly, “candid camera and paparazzi are really something you can’t avoid in this circle. But if you are low-pitched enough, protecting your own privacy isn’t so difficult as you imagined.”
“And, what do you think freedom is? Freedom is not like as you imagined, you can do whatever you want, but when you don’t want to something, you can say no.”
Yu Qinghuan’s heart skipped a beat and he held his breath.
Wang Zhensheng continued, “Every circle has its own unspoken rules. Absolute clean place doesn’t exist. If you want to quit this circle to avoid such grey zone, you are wrong.”
“So why don’t you change your way of thinking? When you are powerful enough to say no to the rules, or you could even make the rules yourself, will you still care about those things binding you?”
Yu Qinghuan lost in his words, he even didn’t know when Wang Zhensheng left. When he came to himself, the sun was already hanging over his head.
The sun in winter was not scorching hot, but it didn’t have that kind of warmth in summer. Yu Qinghuan raised his head with his eyes narrowed, feeling the sunlight jumping on his face.