Chapter 195 (1/2)
”No! Chunan, I beg you not to say that, OK Murphy crouched down and grabbed my wrist, tears in her eyes. ”I know I'm wrong. I shouldn't have lied to you. But, Chunan, I really treat you as my friend, my only friend. Can you believe me?”
”Have you ever believed me?” I coldly opened Murphy's hand. ”If you think I'm a friend, why cheat me?”
”I didn't lie to you!” Murphy cried, ”no, I've never cheated you!”
Murphy is not stupid, but she is playing silly with me! I laughed, laughing worse than crying, ”no? Good one has not. Aren't you still lying to me now? ”
I got up angrily and went to Murphy's desk. Murphy was stunned. He got up in a hurry and ran after him. He exclaimed, ”no!”
Murphy fit on the table, but it was still slow. I picked up the small photo frame on the table, shook the only picture of her and her father, and asked in a harsh voice, ”Why are you nervous? Why don't you want me to see this picture? ”
Murphy sat on the ground powerless and cried, ”no, it's not what you think, Chunan, it's not like that”
Why do you still have a hard mouth? Why do you have to force me to uncover your scar when you are already desperate and know that it is irreparable? I can't forgive Murphy who denied my existence. However, I sympathize with her as mean. Therefore, I don't want to destroy her dignity. But Murphy's dishonesty betrays my brain honestly. I lose my mind and laugh wildly, ”isn't it? Not what? Murphy, do you want to say that you didn't use me as your father's double? ”
Murphy suddenly hugged my thigh, lifted her pretty face, and cried, ”no, I really don't!” However, how can she hide her shame?
”If you only cheat me, I can forgive you, because we are friends! However, when I know that I am just a stand in, a substitute in your eyes, can you imagine my mood at that time? I feel like you made up a doll, is a role you play! In order to satisfy your illusory imagination and escape from the reality, you obliterate the existence of Chunan! In your eyes, only your father's shadow, in your heart, ever had my existence? In that case, how could you have made me a friend? ”
I broke away from Murphy's embrace and shook my head powerlessly. ”Enough, really enough. You cheat me and play me. It doesn't matter. I won't continue to play this boring family game with you. You should accept the reality and live bravely, and I will face the reality honestly. Murphy, we are never friends and will not be friends.”
”No! I don't want it Murphy went crazy and pleaded, ”Chunan, we are friends! I know I shouldn't cheat you, but I really didn't deny your existence. I beg you, you can beat me and scold me, but don't say such unfeeling words to me, OK
”How can we say that love has never existed?” I smile bitterly, looking at Murphy's sad face full of water marks, I can no longer suppress the sadness in my heart, powerless and determined to say: ”Murphy, who is heartless, who is injured in the end? Don't be coquettish, because I have never been so tolerant as you imagine. Don't let your tears drop on my wound, OK
Murphy froze, trying to grab my hand again.
”Murphy, who I once knew, was a strong woman. Even if there was a mother who loved to make trouble but didn't know how to love her, even if she was a person facing the company's open and covert struggle and the shopkeeper's intrigue, she could hold up her head and be like a noble swan. I hope that the things I see with my own eyes are not her deceiving me,” I said After a good secret love said goodbye, no nostalgia, ”you did not lose anything, because I have never been your friend, so you have no reason to shed tears to leave.”
When I took Xiao Yike out of the room, Wu Xueqing, who was posted outside the door to eavesdrop, almost fell in. She should have heard our conversation clearly. Therefore, she didn't know what to say to me. ”Chunan”
”if she didn't lack the care of her relatives and the warmth of her family, what happened today would not happen,” I said coldly to the embarrassed Wu Xueqing ”I'm just a substitute, but you're not. Please take care of yourself in the future. If you don't want to see today's things happen again, take on the responsibility of being a mother.”