157 It could break them (1/2)

Sumire does not know when she stopped breathing. But she noticed when it started to get better. No she found a method to deal with the emptiness. Whenever she read books she felt calmer. Ah, so there are other people who feel this way too.

'I am not the only weird one. If others feel like this too, does that make me normal?

Back then people often told me to behave normally. But I did not understand that. What did they mean by normal? I am alive aren't I?'

Sometimes Sumire felt like a dead person walking. She could no longer breathe and her emotions slowly became numb. She could cry and shout for hours but nobody would care, nobody would come to her. Who else would come to her? She is already all alone. The people who cared all left because they got tired.

Maybe its time to go? Maybe it is time to end this all. To the very end there was nothing she could do, she will die as a useless, and wretched person. Did death frighten her?

Yes it did, she was scared to die. Scared to die with such negativity, scared to die as a piece of trash.

”I was always on your side.”

Is that so? Ha, then..then if that was the case.

'Where were you when I was in so much pain? Where we you when I felt alienated from those close to me? Where were you when I was bullied? Where were you when I felt so hopeless, lost and depressed? When I felt so useless, weak and unwanted? Did you even notice? The reason why I turned out this way, the reason I cannot move forward, do you know?'

People are liars, there is nobody out there who is sincere and genuine. Everybody thinks what they are doing is normal, they assume they are the right ones, they are the normal ones. It is the other person at fault. But the reality is? Those words and actions can severely hurt another person. It could break them.

If something like that can break another person, then what about somebody who is already broken?

Her thoughts broke off when she felt a pair of arms wrap around her from the back. Yuhi brushed his lips against her neck and muttered something softly before pulling away.

”You alright?”

”Mm, I just thought it was too noisy.”

Also, she noticed the looks they gave her. It seems like many people do not approve of her relationship with Yuhi. She does not have to listen to their bullshit, but if it will affect Yuhi, then it is better to remain distant. At least when they are around other people.

She turned around and wrapped her arms around his neck. ”Yuhi-san, let me do something bad to you.”

Yuhi chuckled. ”Well, I don't mind if you do. But I think people can see us from here.”

”I don't care.”

”You know, back when I was in the underworld, you frustrated me a lot.”