16 Trouble in the Office (1/2)

”I must be crazy!” I shouted into the pillow so I wouldn't wake up the whole neighborhood. It was already late in the night and I still couldn't fall asleep. All kinds of thoughts were running through my head.

”This is a mistake, he was drunk... that must be it...” I was painfully aware of the fact that Gray was married and that I myself had a wonderful boyfriend, but my logic couldn't restrain my feelings and soon enough I was once again lost in the sweet memory from just a couple of hours ago.

I remembered the way his heat transferred into my skin, the feeling of his fingers tugging gently at my hair, the intoxicating fragrance that made me forget where I was and the wonderful feel of his warm lips onto mine, dominating my whole being without a chance to resist.

”I'm sure this was just a joke or something, I shouldn't make such a big deal of it.” And still my heart was threatening to jump out of my chest hours after the whole fiasco, and my mind couldn't escape the memory of his eyes looking at me, his hair falling over them slightly shadowing his lustful look.

Even I could tell he gazed at me like a man would at a woman he desires, but I shouldn't be happy about this, just forget this ever happened.

”He is my boss and I am just a simple employee, we each have our own relationships and Rob has been a kind and understanding boyfriend all this time.” I couldn't even look in the mirror without cringing at the stupid girl staring back at me.

”I must remember my motto in life: Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.” This was my own personal rule that always kept me centered when I was going through tough times.

I was never a person who relied on religion but for some reason, this saying had stuck to me during all these years and I found it helped me a lot in life. This rule should not change for anything, including what just happened. I was determined to keep living life as I saw fit and I would never be a cheater or a homewrecker because I could just imagine how that would feel if it were me on the other side.

”I decided, this is nothing but a mistake, I should go talk to Gray on Monday and just tell him to forget it ever happened.” And with this decision in my mind, I finally closed my eyes and pushed back the annoying prodding in my heart and fell into a deep sleep.

...

As Monday rolled around my mind was once again in a turmoil. No matter how many times I would do breathing exercises or encourage myself to stand by my decision, by the time I got to work I was already feeling scared at seeing Gray and all my courage flew out the window.

I quietly entered the office only to suddenly drop my bag when a thundering voice was heard and the office door opened and closed with a loud thud. Gray was coming towards me and I could feel my legs give in, barely keeping me upright.

He was coming closer with big strides and I could feel a thread of sweat finding its way on the back of my neck, making me twitch when a breeze came behind me from an opened window and the cold air hit me, cooling me down.

Gray was obviously angry about something and when his eyes instantly fell on me, his expression grew even more annoyed.

”Are you leaving too?” he shouted after positioning himself in front of me. His eyes were bloodshot and he looked like a madman, his breathing rough and his hands holding tightly into a pack of cigarettes, almost crushing it.