Chapter 2317 (1/2)

A hollowed out sense of seeing surged into her heart, twisted her eyebrows, and Feng Jingyi began to feel uncomfortable again. Instinctively, she wanted to knock her head and think hard, but Huo Qingyang stopped her hand when she was about to touch it:

”do you want to knock yourself silly? What is this bad habit? ”

Holding her small hand tightly, Huo Qingyang directly clasped her in front of her: ”dreams are like this, can't remember it's very normal, dreams are not reality, what do you really do?”

It comforted her, but Huo Qingyang's heart was covered with a layer of haze. He looked down at the soft and lovely woman in his arms. For a while, his heart felt warm and relaxed unconsciously. His sight also softened:

”it seems that I haven't heard from you for such a long time. Your family is harmonious. Your parents and brother love you very much. They have everything from small to big Yiting and Yimo are taking care of you. You must have a good and happy life, right

”MMM”

leaning in front of him, surrounded by a strong sense of security, Feng Jingyi's fluctuating mood gradually subsided:

”there is no idea that men are more important than women in our family. I am a little girl, and they will spoil me and let me go a lot of times! Sometimes, I feel very happy, sometimes, I feel very lonely, very sad! ”

”Alone?” Still sad?

Shocked by her words, Huo Qingyang's eyes are full of disbelief.

”Well, sometimes it's a kind of happiness to think that everything has been arranged without worrying; sometimes it's helpless to think that life has been planned by others! My brother and cousin were born with responsibilities. When they were young, they were always weighing the weight and heavy in their schoolwork, so they were busy almost every day and didn't like to take me to play. They always thought I was a little tail behind my legs and kept chasing me! I remember one time when I didn't obey the rules and I had to follow them. I hurt my brother accidentally. As a result, they had a very important group competition that day. That time, my cousin was so angry that he shouted at me directly. I didn't dare to eat and left a shadow that day. I dare not disobey him again. Now I still fear instinctively when I see him! When someone bullies me, my brother and cousin must stand up and never be soft. My parents also say it's their duty and responsibility to protect me. They always remind me to listen to my brother's words and respect them. Don't be arrogant and arrogant. Learn from Kong Rong to let pears and fraternity, instead of the willfulness to do what you want when you are young! Elder brother loves younger sister, and younger sister's gratitude is even more necessary. ”

the family tutor she has always kept in mind: family and everything, mother's kindness and filial piety, family is the most important!

So she also developed a habit from childhood. In dealing with anything, she can suffer some grievances. Family harmony is the most important thing. Every member of their family should have such awareness.

”So when I was a child, I often felt lonely, especially when my cousin stayed in my house After her aunt died, she was left alone. She was very lonely and helpless. So her parents took special care of her. She was very good to her. She was beautiful and obedient. Her parents and brothers liked her. They thought I would be very happy when she came to my home. As a result, she robbed my favorite things, clothes, toys, tables, delicious and fun every time Still follow behind elder brother to let elder brother take her out to play! I dare not bother my cousin. My elder brother is occupied by my cousin again. Although they don't ignore me, I'm not happy for a long time. But one day, I suddenly want to understand how she can rob me again. She is also a surname Ding. My parents and elder brother will never leave me if they love her. She can't rob anything. As for the things outside, there are always new and more Like in the back, I also have the right to be their own charity, slowly growing up more and more don't care! ”

”Although the life of a rich family is free of food and clothing, there is no limit to loneliness. Now think about it, I think I was very lonely and pitiful at that time! But compared with many people who worry about here and there, I seem to have a smooth and smooth journey. I live in a big house and eat delicious food. I never worry about lack of money. I can get the luxury that others dream of at will. I don't have to worry about studying abroad or studying. I can try any interest. It's a luxury for others to lick the screen and chase stars. However, I can take photos and meet at will until the end I'm not interested at all, and I don't even care about dreams. It seems that I'm too happy! ”

After a meal, Feng Jingyi also sighed a long breath unconsciously:

”maybe it's too happy and smooth! Many people have been pursuing and trying to climb the summit all their lives, but I often reach it without any effort. This feeling is like holding baskets of fruits. It seems like a big harvest but I don't know the real taste. How many people can understand this empty feeling? I'm afraid I'll be scolded and flirted with anyone! Isn't it sad that a person who lives seems to live well can't even find a sense of existence? ”

”It's said that natural materials are useful, and cattle can plow. If people live only to eat, wear and warm, then this long life is not all a waste. What's the difference with those low-level creatures whose life is short? Therefore, I have always wanted to do one thing, not to lose this life, at least to prove that I have come to this world, whether it's ups and downs or thorns, there must be one thing because of myself, but not the origin and identity of Feng Jingyi! ”

What's the difference between living without pursuing something and walking dead? She has been trying to find the identity of this world. She has been working hard, but her efforts have been either submerged in the aura of family closure or completely wiped out.

Therefore, she has always been full of fantasies about the completely subversive gray and black zone with her own world. Her family education does not allow her to degenerate, nor does she allow her family to be sad and disappointed. Therefore, a work of such subject matter has become her obsession that she can make the best of both worlds. However, she did not expect that this hard road is not as smooth as she imagined.