17 Two That Are Alike (1/2)

He cried for a while.

It was heart breaking.

”I-I I know I said I didn't understand why it chose you but… it was a lie. I just didn't want to accept it. I didn't want to accept anything. When I saw your life and I saw your soul, I felt scared so I took it out on you. But I know I'm just in denial. I know the truth; I just don't want to acknowledge it.

I don't want to accept that nobody wants me. That nobody cares for me. That the moment I was born everyone hated me. They thought of me as a sin.

Not even my mother wanted me.”

He sobbed and cried until she finally spoke up.

”If no one wants you that's okay. I know its hard when the world hates you, when everything turns to be a failure, when not even your closest and most trusted are there for you. It's okay. In the end you learn that at least you met me. You met someone that went through something similar. Someone who values everything they are given so much that even if the entire universe was against it they would fight to be back at your side as long as you decide to be with them. At least you were born to meet me. You didn't go through the feelings I went through. You didn't experience the life I had. You might have seen it like watching a movie but it isn't the same. The feeling of being born with something precious knowing you had family who had once loved you be suddenly torn apart by them is the worst. Its better to have not have had it in the first place. Then the pain wouldn't be as great. At least you met me when you were at your weakest. At least you have someone to share your pain with.

So be grateful because I didn't. I wish I had someone to protect me, listen to me, hug me, and kiss me when I needed it the most. Your heart suffered but at least it wasn't as hurt as mine. After going through what I went through, I was still tormented by my past and its hard to even accept the change I'm going through. I'm trying….”

She cried and heaved while holding her chest.

”I'm trying so f*****g hard.

To heal, to forgive, to trust, to start all over again.

I accepted my parents but every morning when I wake up I pray and hope:

Please, please let them be there. Please let them still love me and want me.

I hope that they didn't leave me behind. I pray for their love and care because after everything that happened at the end of the day I drown in my own madness. My insecurity is overwhelming and I don't know If I'm ever really going to get over it.

But I still try.

I know I have accepted them and I will never leave them or stop loving them but it doesn't change the fear or chance that they will.”

Her tear stricken face was so beautiful. To him, as he listened to her, she seemed like a fallen goddess.

Its true, he had seen everything, including the parts she didn't remember. She suffered much more than she could ever know. He couldn't begin to imagine her pain. She was a goddess full of pain and at that moment she had become his goddess.

She looked up at him. Eyes full of sorrow penetrated his soul as she smiled.

”If the world doesn't love you, doesn't want you, or even hates you, don't worry because I will and I will fight and fall with you if necessary. I will do everything in my power for you.

You, who has experienced the same sorrow. You who has been abandoned. You who has been shunned along with me by fate and happiness.

You and me. We are destined to be alone.

But we will be alone together.”

They hugged and shared their sorrows.

He told her his short past.

”My parents are the two most powerful people of their species but they are enemies. They loved one another but they also hated their destiny. They could never agree with each other and were too proud to meet half way. When I was born, I was hated by them. I was a menace to their future and to their standing in the heavens and in hell so I was abandoned.

I was left in the most dangerous woods there to fend for myself. Other dragons discovered me and I was hated by society. I was dangerous.

I lived on listlessly. I walked on even if I was starving. At some point I fell. I couldn't move.

I was tired o-of everything. So I laid there. I was ready to give up but some compassionate faeries healed me. I was full of energy. Their intentions in healing me seemed to good but were full of cruelty. They wanted to give me hope before murdering me for money. Yes. I was a criminal by then. A newborn criminal. The ones that put up that bounty were my parents.

F**k

It hurt so much. I didn't understand why at that time. Why my parents didn't want me. Why I was hated by everyone.

The fairies threw me onto a well to drown me but my luck wasn't so bad. I was taken in by the well. It was magical. I was living in a star. I thought my memories over and couldn't help but cry in realization that I was never loved. I have been in denial since then. Until I met you of course. I saw your life and I felt pain for you. I wanted to comfort you but your life also made me face the truth so I also hated you. I didn't know how to face you so I acted as I did. I'm sorry. You have suffered the most and yet I treated you so.”

She looked at him and smiled.

”That's all in the past. I'm sorry too.

What is your name?'

He chuckled and said, ”That's another thing we have in common. I don't have one.”

She hugged him tightly and pulled back to smile as she looked at him. Such a tiny mystical being

Was born into suffering and it wasn't even his fault.

”Is it okay if I name you?”

His eyes were full of surprise and expectancy as he nodded, ”It would be my honor.”

She smiled and kissed his forehead three times.

”Your name will be Clovis Bai Ercan.

Clovis because you are a survivor,

Bai because no matter how many say otherwise you are pure, white, and noble to me, and...

Ercan because you were brave and after all of this, we were bound together as souls because of our past, because of our lives.”

(ERCAN- From Turkish er meaning ”brave man” and can meaning ”soul, life”. Bai- From Chinese 白 (bái) meaning ”white, pure”, 百 (bǎi) meaning ”one hundred, many. Clovis- The one who fights to live/the survivor.)

Hearing the meaning behind his name he couldn't help but cry.

His tears fell on her and they hugged. Light started shifting and swirling around them. They were confused and dumbfounded. A tear which had fallen on her wrist imprinted on her. It was golden. It dimmed down eventually but still remained golden. They looked at each other and noticed that Ercan also had it under his wing. It was strange.