Part 33 (1/2)
”All the same, I have a great longing for the dreary loneliness, and I'm going there, too, after a few days; that is, if you have no objection.”
”Well, I have very serious objections,” retorted Egon crossly. ”In heaven's name what's the matter with you anyway? Now when the whole city is wild over the author of 'Arivana' and your presence is demanded everywhere, you want to run away from all the glory and triumph, and hide yourself in a little, dark hole which is only bearable in midsummer. Such an idea is unheard of.”
”For my own sake--I need quiet and rest--I will go to Rodeck.”
The young prince shook his head. He was accustomed to have his friend do as he pleased without much heed to his remonstrances, and he knew no means by which he could combat this new whim; but it did appear to him a very unaccountable one.
”I believe my highly esteemed aunt knows what she's talking about sometimes,” he said, between a joke and a reproof. ”She said to me last night, in the theatre, 'Our friend has caprices like other poets.' I agree with her. What has come over you, Hartmut? Yesterday and to-day you were fairly beaming with triumph and joy, and now I have scarcely left you for an hour and return to find you in the depths of melancholy.
Have you seen anything in the papers which has annoyed you? Something from the pen of a malicious, spiteful critic, I'll be bound.”
He turned toward the writing-table, where the evening papers lay.
”No, no,” Rojanow said, hastily, but he turned his face sidewise, so that it lay in the shadow. ”All the papers mention 'Arivana,' and each strives to outdo his neighbor in writing complimentary things about me.
You know I am of an uncertain temper, and am often cast down, without being able to give reason for my depression.”
”Yes, but now when you are overwhelmed with praise, fairly extolled to the skies, such depression should be far from you. You really seem exhausted. That comes from the excitement we both have undergone during the past few weeks.”
He bent anxiously over his friend, who stretched out his hand to him as if to atone for this sudden change.
”Forgive me, Egon. You must have patience with me--I'll be myself again in a little while.”
”I sincerely hope so. My poet has much honor awaiting him, even to-night. I'll leave you now. Try and rest, and don't let any one else disturb you. You have three good hours before we need start.”
The prince went. He had not seen the bitter smile on his friend's face when he referred to his triumphs and good fortune; and yet the prince had spoken the truth. Fame was good fortune and happiness, perhaps the highest in life, and Hartmut was willing to acknowledge that it was so, until an hour ago, when a bitter drop had mingled in his cup.
When the young man had entered his room an hour before, he had glanced hastily over the evening papers. A review of his work was to be found in each, and he read with interest the impressions which the drama had made: of its strength, and depth, and power, and how skillfully the young and talented Roumanian, Hartmut Rojanow, had outlined and elaborated his characters.
Then, as he turned the sheet, another name met his gaze, a name which, for the moment, deadened his very senses.
The article which caught his eye stated that the recent journey of the Prussian Amba.s.sador to Berlin, had been on a matter of great significance. Herr von Wallmoden had had an audience of the duke immediately on his return, and they had discussed matters of the gravest importance, and now a high Prussian officer was expected, who was the bearer of certain special dispatches to the duke. It was evident that some weighty military affair was under discussion, and Colonel Hartmut von Falkenried would be in the city in a few days.
Hartmut let the paper drop from his hands; his whole body seemed to turn to ice. His father to be here in a day or two! Herr von Wallmoden would of course tell him all. The possibility of meeting him now seemed to resolve itself into a certainty.
”When you have made a great, proud name and future for yourself then you can stand before him and ask him whether he despises you or not,” Zalika had said to her son on that memorable night when he had protested against breaking his word to his father. Now the first step toward this brilliant future had been taken.
Hartmut Rojanow already wore the laurel wreath, and that was enough, surely, to obliterate the past. It should and must be enough; and it was this thought which blazed from Hartmut's eyes as he looked toward the amba.s.sador's box last night.
But could he look thus into his father's eyes? Despite all his defiance he feared those eyes, and them alone, in all the world.
He had partly decided to go to Rodeck, and then he picked up the paper again to see if any date was named for the distinguished officer's arrival. He felt within him a something--a secret and burning longing.
Perhaps now when his great triumph was but just begun, the hour for reconciliation had come; perhaps, when Falkenried saw what the freedom and life for which his son had craved so long ago, had developed, he would forgive the boy for the sake of the man. He was his child still, his only son, whom he had clasped to his arms with such pa.s.sionate tenderness on that last evening at Burgsdorf.
This memory brought with it a mighty longing in Hartmut's soul for those arms, for a home, for all that he had lost since those boyhood's days, which, despite their severity, had been so innocent, so peaceful, so happy.
The door opened, and a servant entered and extended a card on a salver.
Rojanow made an impatient movement to take it away.
”Didn't I tell you I wouldn't see any one else to-day?”
”I told the gentleman that,” explained the servant, ”but he said he'd like Herr Rojanow to hear his name, anyway--Willibald von Eschenhagen.”