Part 7 (1/2)

This must be as hard for him as it is for me, thought Stevie, recognizing that blanched, brave look.

She let her eyes casually drift over to Matthew, who pretended that was the first he had seen of her and, how she managed it she didn't know, but she waved genially and smiled like the Queen, and then carried on eye-flitting, as if she was merely perusing the crowd. Jo's red and blackness was harder to deal with. Stevie couldn't bring herself even to glance in that direction so it was wiser to pretend Jo wasn't there. Her suit seemed to keep creeping into Stevie's peripheral vision though, and she had to keep constantly finding places for her eyes to rest away from Jo and Matthew and MacLean. It was exhausting.

'Last photogroup shot of friends!' announced the photographer, about three million years later, when all the old people were starting to ask loudly, 'How much longer before we sit down and have something to eat?'

Oh G.o.d, thought Stevie as all the people in her worst nightmare seemed to converge onto the lawn. Catherine protectively dragged Stevie between herself and Eddie and moved forward into the throng. Jo was posing at the other end, Matthew was in the middle and Adam was nowhere to be seen, which meant he was probably somewhere behind her.

'That's one for the alb.u.mnot,' said Catherine wryly, giving her a nudge.

'Right, has everyone got lifts back to the Ivy?' enquired big Adam MacLean in full duty mode. He didn't have to shout to be heard. His voice showed up on the Richter scale between the San Francisco earthquake and a Def Leppard concert.

'We haven't,' replied Eddie, who had left the car at home so they could all have a drink. He hadn't said it that loudly, but it appeared that Adam also had the ears of a bat (as well as the face of a bashed crab, thought Stevie with a smirk) and he expertly organized them into a car with William's ancient Uncle Dennis. Stevie took a sly look over at Matthew, who appeared to be making a pretence of saying, 'Hi,' to Jo and asking her if she had a lift, if the extravagant hand gestures towards the church car park were anything to go by. It was like watching someone conduct something complicated by Rimsky-Korsakov.

'There, that wasn't too bad, was it?' said Eddie as they were crammed together in the back of a treasured old car that belonged in a museum, driven by someone who belonged in the same place.

'What?' said Catherine. 'Are you thick? If she'd shook any more, her blood would have turned to yogurt.'

'I think I might skip the reception and go home,' said Stevie, who felt nauseous, something that couldn't be blamed on Uncle Dennis's wild driving. Tortoises and snails were overtaking them on both sides.

'No chance,' said Catherine. 'You're doing great. Think of ”your plan”.'

'Did he look at me at all?' asked Stevie, thinking how the last time she had asked Catherine that, was at the sixth-form disco about the cool and gorgeous Oliver Thompson, resplendent in a burgundy jacket and black trousers. She had gone totally off him twenty minutes later, after finding him dancing like a nerd to 'Are Friends Electric'. Ah, the fickleness of youth!

'I honestly don't know,' said Catherine. 'I was trying not to look at him.'

Behind her back, Catherine's fingers were crossed on the lie. She did not tell her friend that on the couple of occasions she had looked over, Matthew seemed only to have eyes for Jo. It was all she could do not to march over there and bang their heads together.

Alas, the Ivy wasn't the Ivy, but it was a very nice country hotel less than a mile away, with a small golf range and a rather magnificent entrance hall, where trays of sherry and malt whisky were awaiting. Stevie's hand was shaking so much that she managed to spill most of her sherry down her skirt. She did a quick sweep of the room to make sure no one of importance had seen her be so clumsy.

'Calm down,' reprimanded Catherine. 'You look like you've got the DTs.'

Adam was laughing, circulating and being jolly Ginger Man. He looked totally different with all that hair off, thought Stevie. She wouldn't have said 'softer', because no one with that nose and scar could have looked remotely soft. 'Less hideous', was the a.s.sessment she preferred.

Jo and Matthew were at opposite ends of the room. She was talking to some other women, poised and elegant and not spilling her sherry. Matthew was chatting to the best man. Stevie tried really hard not to look over but her eyes kept gravitating towards him. She noticed that he was trying equally hard not to let his eyes wander over to Jo, but, like herself, he was failing.

'Hi there!' Pam burst in and kissed them all. She had a champagne gla.s.s in one hand and a long menthol cigarette in the other.

'Congratulations,' said Stevie. 'You look fab.'

'So do you actually, Stevie. Have you lost weight?'

'A bit,' said Stevie.

'Sorry to hear about you, hon, hope it all works out for you.'

'Oh er, yes. Don't worry,' said Stevie, plastering on a smile and manipulating a change in subject. 'So, where do we put your presents? I hope you like this.'

'G.o.d knows, me mam's got that bit organized. Course I'll like it. I'd like it even more if it were a pair of slippers. I tell you, my p.i.s.sing feet are killing me in these shoes. Don't know how I'm going to manage to dance.'

Pam, the less than traditional bride, then swanned off with a 'see ya later' on her ma.s.sive satin heels and left them standing in a quiet triangle.

'Sorry, but I had to tell her about you and Matthew,' said Catherine with a little apologetic smile. 'I didn't think you'd want to be sitting next to him if he turned up, so I asked my Auntie Madge to alter the seating plan.'

'I would never have thought of that,' said Stevie. Sitting next to Matthew would have been torture. She squeezed Catherine's hand gratefully. 'Thanks.' It was so typical of her thoughtfulness; no wonder they'd been friends for so long. You would always want to hang onto someone like her.

'You need to sort this wedding thing out with him, quick,' Catherine went on. 'I don't want to upset you and so I won't say anything else, but in the next few days you have to find out where you stand.'

'I know,' said Stevie.

'I'd chuffing cancel it if I were you,' said Eddie, taking a big glug of the Barnsley Bitter he'd had to buy because Catherine had nicked his sherry to give to Stevie. 'He's definitely not the bloke I thought he was at all.'

No one answered him, but, yes, they were all thinking the same.

'Laydeees and gelmen, would ye kindly make yer way tae the dinen arearrr,' came Adam MacLean's cannon of a voice.

'If he's doing a speech after, no one will understand a flaming word,' said Catherine, giving Stevie a little tension-busting giggle.

They looked at the seating plan and Stevie found that she was sandwiched between Eddie and Oh noA. MacLean! Luckily, her mind was playing tricks on her and it was actually A. MacLeod, who was a young spaghetti-string of a teenage boy who kept pulling at his collar as if it was strangling him.

Matthew was somewhere further down the table on her side and out of spying sight and Jo was halfway down an adjacent table, between two middle-aged men in kilts who seemed more than happy with the seating arrangements. She certainly didn't look very victimy, considering she was sitting five people away from her psychotic soon-to-be ex-husband, who was behaving with remarkable dignity in the circ.u.mstances, Stevie thought. He actually seemed very jocular. She didn't notice him glance over at Jo once, and by crikey, she was watching for it.

'Stop looking at them,' hissed Catherine. 'I would kick you but I'd snag your tights.'

'Sorry,' said Stevie, and tucked into her turkey main course. It was a full-blown Christmas dinner. Pam had wanted a Christmas wedding, hence the fur cape, but she didn't want to risk the weather, so she had the best of both worldssuns.h.i.+ne and turkey, except for the lone vegetarian kid to her right, pus.h.i.+ng a nut roast around on his plate. She had never seen an unhealthier-looking pallor on anyone. She almost wanted to kidnap him and force-feed him some chops and see if they might turn his own chops a better colour.

There was Christmas pudding and mince pies to follow, then when coffee was served, the newly-weds cut the cakea ma.s.sive three-layered chocolate creation that apparently had more rum than b.u.t.ter in it, according to the best man's speech, during which everyone laughed and the air seemed charged with love and smiles.

Stevie's wedding wasn't going to be as big or nearly as grand as this, but her dad was giving her away and she was having frothy pea soup, roast beef and Yorks.h.i.+re puddings, and raspberry meringue roulade or fudge cake for afters at the White Swan, a lovely pub out in the countryside near p.e.n.i.stone. Matthew's brother was flying in from Canada to be best man and she had picked pink roses for her bouquet. Everything was in place, and so far, he hadn't called it off.

'So why is he wearing his suit now at someone else's wedding? And looking gorgeous in it for someone else, not you,' said that annoying voice in her head again. She wished it would contract a serious and sudden case of laryngitis.

Her thoughts came back to the table as gla.s.ses were raised to 'the Happy Couple'. Stevie raised hers along with the others and tried hard to smile convincingly. Matthew was sleeping with someone else and she was in the process of moving out of his house. How feasible was it that they were going to be 'the happy couple' themselves in three weeks' time?

There was no ordinary disco for Pam's night entertainment, oh no. She had a Ceilidh band and a dance demonstration team clad in Highland clobber, stripping the willow and reeling about, not unlike Uncle Dennis had started to do after three sherries.

'He'll have to leave his car behind, by the looks of it,' said Catherine, as he fell off his chair without breaking the rhythm of his hand-clapping.

'This is a dance called ”Blooo Bunnets'” said a hairy accordion player, who looked like a smaller, 'before' model of Adam MacLean.

'Blue Bonnets? I used to do this at school,' said Eddie.

'You? Doing country dancing?' said Catherine with an amused squeak.

'Aye, I was good an' all. All the la.s.ses wanted me for a partner.'

'Get on up there then, lad.' Catherine pushed him towards the dance floor.

'Knickers! I can't remember how you do it.' He retreated shyly.

'You don't have tothey show you.'