Part 27 (1/2)

When he was just about to throw his hands up and head for Las Vegas, a soft knock came on the chamber door. Then it slid open, and Thea filled the brightly lit doorway. The chamber always remained dark so that the transmissions could be viewed, and he had to squint as he looked at her. He covered the distance that separated them quickly, praying against any other obstacles that might further interrupt his wedding day.

”May I speak with you, cousin?” She kept her voice low, her clear blue eyes darting about the room. He knew she was searching for Kelsey, but because of where his mate sat on a settee to the left of the entry, Thea didn't see her.

”Of course,” he agreed, touching her arm affectionately.

Her eyes shot about them nervously. ”Alone?”

”They're working on the console unit right now. It's a good time,” he said, and she nodded, then led the way back into the corridor outside.

Now that Thea had him alone, she wasn't sure what she wanted to say. Well, she had a general idea, but the words she'd rehea.r.s.ed had fled her mind now that Jared stood before her. She felt for the bouquet she'd gingerly tucked inside her jacket for safekeeping.

Taking a deep breath, she began. ”Cousin, I love you,” she blurted. Jared's eyebrows narrowed sharply, and he opened his mouth to say something, but she pushed ahead. ”I love you more than you will probably ever know, and I understand that you don't return those feelings.”

”Of course I love-”

She placed a silencing hand on his forearm. ”Please, cousin, let me finish.”

His mouth snapped shut and he nodded, folding his muscled forearms over his chest.

This wasn't easy; it was even harder than she'd imagined as she'd trudged over from the guesthouse to the base. She continued, ”You deserve to be happy, and I know that from the day you became king, your life has not been your own.”

He dropped his head, but she could still see the quiet pain that appeared in his eyes.

”You have sacrificed a great deal for all of us, and we love you for it, Jared. We honor you for it. It is only right and fair, therefore, that with all that you've sacrificed in your lifetime, you should be allowed happiness in at least this one thing.”

He gaped back at her, blinking rapidly. ”Why would you do this?” he asked hoa.r.s.ely. ”I don't understand.”

Even though her heart was breaking, she gave him a weak smile. ”You are a tremendous leader and an even better man. I shouldn't have said what I did earlier at the guesthouse.” Tears welled in her eyes, blurring the image of him before her. He wavered, and she blinked until the tears began to spill freely. ”But the thing is, Jared, I always thought you would be mine. You were meant to be, for all those years.”

He opened his arms and without a word pulled her close, right up against his chest. So close that she could feel the natural D'Aravnian heat that emanated from within him, the energy that resonated so very clearly with her own. She would never find another man, not on any planet, who could understand who and what she truly was like this one man did, her king, her beloved cousin, her friend. She cried against that strong chest, and one warm hand folded about her back. Wordless, soundless, they stood like that for a long while.

At last, m.u.f.fled against the top of her head, she heard a quiet pledge from him. Something she knew she would replay and replay for years to come, would rehea.r.s.e in her head and imagine ending differently. Words for a lifetime. He said, ”I am yours, Thea. Just not like you thought I'd be.”

He pulled apart from her, tenderly brus.h.i.+ng one of her errant blond curls away from her cheek. But she wasn't finished yet.

She slipped a hand inside her jacket and retrieved the bouquet. ”Here, these are for you,” she said hoa.r.s.ely. ”For your wedding day.”

”No, Thea, I brought you those,” he tried to argue.

”You should have them. To remember your mother today.”

”My mother-oh, the Cessanaram.” He lifted the bouquet to his nose, closing his eyes just as his younger self lad done so many years ago. ”I can't believe you remembered that.”

”I want you to be happy, Jared,” she said, recalling the first day she'd met him as a young king all those years ago. Hie was meant to be hers, then and now. But he was also deserving of happiness. She bowed her head and dropped to her knees. ”My lord, this is my wedding gift to you.” She trembled there, kneeling before her king. Her hands grew clammy, the tears stung her eyes anew, and she waited. Waited for him to urge her back to her feet. But all she heard was silence, and still she waited-until there was a soft rustling sound. She glanced upward... and instead found Jared kneeling, eye-to-eye with her.

”I predict,” he whispered, gathering her hands within one of his, the flowers in his other, ”that one day we will a.s.semble here for your own marriage, someone you love far more than you've ever thought to care for me.”

”So you're a mystic now?” she teased, wiping her eyes with the back of her hand.

”Times are changing. I feel it, and I feel it for you too.”

She wanted to accept his words; she truly did. But deep in heart she believed the only thing different about today, the only thing that set it apart from every other day they'd fought this endless war, was that Jared Bennett had found love-and it wasn't with her.

Chapter Twenty-six.

They were connected now, and in every conceivable way. Their hearts, their minds, their souls and spirits -every aspect of their selves was tuned to a unity of one. Even their bodies; Jared held Kelsey so closely in his arms they might as well have been in the privacy of his bedroom, not in front of eight council members and his best friend. She almost wondered if he feared she would bolt from the room. The tempo of his heart was frighteningly fast, his chest rising and falling with ragged breaths.

When they'd first taken their place before the council, he'd sought their bond by shooting his energy toward her like one of Zeus's mighty thunderbolts, electrifying her on the spot. d.a.m.n the guy, but her hair had instantly stood on end with static electricity. That was how intense a single jolting dose of her lover's powerful alien self had been. He'd smiled at her sheepishly, and she'd quickly patted down the flyaway hairs (wis.h.i.+ng for a cling-free sheet), and then the formal ceremony had begun.

She was using the word formal pretty lightly, since she wore only a slinky red dress; sleeveless (well, spaghetti straps kept it from sliding off her body) and backless, it would have qualified as formal on, say, a cruise s.h.i.+p. Or at a New Year's Eve party. But it wasn't exactly a wedding dress by any usual standards of the imagination. Kelsey had borrowed it from Anika, who offered no explanations as to why -or how-an alien soldier came to have a postage stamp of an evening gown in her possession. Miraculously, the gauzy fluff of material had fit Kelsey perfectly-and gauging by the way Jared's dark eyes had narrowed to slits upon first seeing her in it, she wondered if the gown's fortuitous appearance in Anika's room might be in no small part because he'd wished it so. And wished it to be so in his favorite color-red.

As for Jared, he seemed determined to be as devastatingly handsome as he could possibly manage on such short notice. Translation: He wore his military uniform, all black and s.e.xy as h.e.l.l. He couldn't have chosen better even if he'd been wearing some kind of kingly formal wear. For a moment, she wondered what his traditional garb would have been if they'd been married on his planet, and decided to ask him later, when they were alone.

She had no understanding whatsoever of the meaning of the elders' p.r.o.nouncements over them, but as they rambled on endlessly in Refarian, Jared's hold on her tightened anxiously. Speaking within their bond, she promised, I'm not going anywhere, in exasperation. She sensed his confusion, so she explained. You have a death grip on me.

I need you this close, he whispered across their connection.She sensed an unsteady emotion within her mate. Was it... fear? Was he really afraid?Yes, came his resonating voice.Why on earth?Because I'm getting married, he cried, the words practically jarring inside her brain. Sorry, he muttered.

You'd better listen to these people, she cautioned with a quick burst of humor, because I don't have aclue what's being said.He pressed a kiss against the top of her head. Traditions, rites . . . It's boring; don't worry.When does it get exciting?When I start translating it for you.O-kay, she teased. No wonder you're holding on to me with the Vulcan death grip. You're bored, so you're trying to imagine life beyond this moment.I'm imagining all manner of things with you.Don't do it.Do what?Try to give me a midceremony o.r.g.a.s.m. She laughed and felt him grip her even more frantically. What are you doing? she asked as he s.h.i.+fted her in his arms.Hiding my erection.It's your own fault, you silly king.

And on their banter went, as all the while they kept their faces as neutral and placid as possible. She wasn't sure they ever really listened to any of the ceremony-not until it reached a critical turning point. Jared released her then with a satisfied sigh, allowing his gaze to sweep over her, and turned to face Scott, where he stood slightly behind Jared. The other man, she noticed, had worn a permanent scowl throughout their ceremony-right up until the moment he glimpsed Jared's face. And then Scott's stern expression dissolved into one of the warmest, gentlest smiles she'd ever seen, a smile that told her she liked Scott Dillon-immensely. And from that moment on she knew she would always like him.

Scott slipped something into Jared's waiting hand, and the two of them exchanged quiet words in their own language as they embraced.

And then at last Jared turned back to face her and grasped both of her hands. ”Mate, it is time-time for the sealing of our bond, the solidifying of that which already exists.” Jared's dark eyes fixed on her, narrowing with emotion. ”For the taking of us, one heart to another, one body and soul.” One man, his queen, he finished softly across their bond. One lover, his lifemate. Oh, G.o.ds, Kelsey... I hardly want them to hear what I wish to say.

It's okay, she promised him, as much within their bond as with her eyes.

He nodded, then very slowly continued. ”It is the tradition of the D'Aravni that the royal mark be pa.s.sed upon the moment of the wedding seal. Our royal mark”-he released her hand, exposing the underside of his wrist to her-”that signifies our lineage.” He opened his other hand, allowing a warm golden beam of his energy to fall upon his exposed skin. The familiar spiraling burst of light appeared between them, just above his wrist in the middle of the air. Magenta and blue and golden red spun and wove together like a mystical helix of energy. His energy. His mark and seal, she realized, and even though she'd seen it before, her hand flew to her mouth. It was a wonder! He bore a hidden mark that set him apart from all others of his species, at least the ones who were not of his line.

Very slowly, dangerously even, he lifted his dark eyes until their gazes locked. The colors of his emblem reflected in the black depths of his eyes, and she knew he was calling to her. Summoning her. Making a gift of something exquisite and rare that was a crucial part of himself.

What did he want? What was he offering to her? She didn't understand, and shook her head.

Love, he breathed, take it.

Take what?

I'm giving you my royal emblem. Take it, love. It belongs to you now, not just me, so go on and take it.

How? she cried in confused frustration. Leave it to this man to confound her at such a crucial moment on their wedding day.

He bowed his head, a lopsided, charming smile appearing on his lips. How do you want to take it? The words were whispered with all the thrumming seduction he might utter during lovemaking.