85 Tomorrow will be a better day (1/2)

How does she know that she can't love him? Thanks to the bond, she can't tell whether she can love him or not.  Find authorized novels in Webnovel，faster updates, better experience，Please clickfor visiting.

If he keeps looking at her like that, she will waver. She will hug him. She will kiss him. She will love him.

The thought scares her. Why did she think that she loves him?

She can't trust whether it's her or the bond. Why does it matter to her so much? She shouldn't care whether it's the bond or her free will. But, it's important to her. If she loves someone, she wants to do it under no outsider's influence. She wants to experience it genuinely.

That's why she doesn't promise him that she won't try breaking the bond.

”Fu Sheng, I want...” 'You'.

”What do you want?” He probes her. ”Don't hesitate. You can tell me, Huang Qiuyan.”

”Want...” To break the bond. She can't promise him that she won't. But why can't she say it? She wants him. The chaotic thoughts in her mind are making her crazy. There are two of her that want different things -- a part of her wants to be desperately free and the other part wants to embrace him.

”Want what?” He tries to feel it through the bond. Her conflicting emotions penetrate through his mind. He sighs and scoops her up in his arms. ”Don't think too hard. You are already not that smart. If you think that hard, your intelligence might diminish. There's nothing much to begin with.”

She's having a hard time in her way. Are her challenges harder than the other converts? He has to soothe the mental anguish that she's experiencing currently.

Huang Qiuyan presses her head to his chest, listening to his heartbeat. The chaotic thoughts are making her head hurt and the intense feelings are exhausting her. Why does she want so many things? She doesn't want to think anymore. She wants her mind to be silent. She doesn't want to feel anything anymore.

”If you can't figure out what you want, you can rely on me and follow my lead. I am the king, after all.” She hears him say, ”Even if you don't want me as your mate, I am still responsible for you as your king.”

”Can I truly rely on you?” She presses her head to his chest, listening to his heartbeat. The chaotic thoughts are making her head hurt. She doesn't want to think anymore.

”Yes.” His voice is resolute and calming.

”Who do you rely on then?” She closes her eyes.