Chapter 125 - Period L"u"st (2/2)

She did not need to look at him to feel the coldness coming from his eyes and she did not want to look. She also knew that he was probably not happy with what she just did, but she just did not want to anymore, regardless of what he wanted. The Emperor narrowed his eyes at her and just stayed there for a while looking at her for a while, then he asked, ”Then do you hate me?”

Lei Xing cast him a quick side glance, completely confused now. His cold eyes unnerved her and she felt cold and upset. She took a deep breath to control herself and then flatly said, ”No.”

The Emperor looked at her with an unconvinced expression, he did not need to pay attention to see her hesitation, and he was paying attention. Unfortunately, Lei Xing did not look at him and so missed the disbelieving and then hurt expression on his face as he swiftly got off the bed and stormed out of the room.

Lei Xing then sat up and looked towards the direction he disappeared in. She let out a sigh of relief as she tied her shirt back together. He had never looked at her like that before, not even while interrogating her all those times. She had never seen him look so cold or speak so coldly before and it somewhat frightened her. He somehow always seemed to be smiling to her, even when he was frowning.  Lei Xing let out a shaky sigh.

{...It seems I had been lulled into a false sense of security...What have I been thinking?...}

Lei Xing ran a hand through her hair and brought her knees up and put her head on it.

{...This is a worst-case scenario, isn't it? I think I have successfully pissed him off...but how is this my fault?!...}

Lei Xing took a deep breath and plopped back down on the bed and covered herself with the blanket. Then she laid on her side and closed her eyes to sleep, but then could not and just lay there staring in the direction he had left. Not really thinking about anything, just blankly staring. She was not sure how much time passed when the doors opened again but she quickly shut her eyes. She slightly opened them to peek, only to see a maid carrying out his memorials.

Lei Xing blinked a few times then knit her brows.

{...I guess he's not coming back...That's good...He must have gone somewhere else to satisfy himself...That's good...It's much better this way...}

Lei Xing turned the other way and wrapped the blanket even more closely around herself and closed her eyes shut to sleep. Then she sighed and opened her eyes again and blankly stared at the wall.

{...Will he punish me for this? Maybe...He probably wouldn't send me out of the palace considering he knows I want that, it wouldn't be much of a punishment...Well, he could always make me a slave or banish me with nothing, he probably knows I'd hate those more...but wouldn't that too much?...

...I'm pretty sure he wouldn't be that unreasonable...right? There's also my family too so he wouldn't...

...I guess there's always the cold palace, whippings, and the list runs on...Probably demote me to a concubine for good measure too...Maybe I'm thinking too much, perhaps he wouldn't even care to...Perhaps...}

Lei Xing remembered that she had arranged to go see Princess Nalan the next day, but now it seems she won't be in a position to make such visits anymore. She laid there contemplating the troubles her tomorrow would bring for a long while, eventually drifting off to sleep still feeling extremely uneasy.