Chapter 149 - The Struggle is Real (2/2)

”...A few...He didn't specify, but...You will be fine after, probably. I'm not sure...But I believe you can handle it well.” The Emperor awkwardly reassured with a deep frown, he then added, ”How about we go home?”

Lei Xing shook her head and mumbled, ”I don't want to move.”

”I can carry you.” The Emperor suggested, he wanted her to be as comfortable as possible. There was nothing wrong with the room she was in now but he wanted to take her back to the palace where there were people to properly look after her...He just wanted to do something to alleviate her condition, sitting here watching her like this was upsetting him.

”I said not to touch me.” Lei Xing irritatedly reminded. The Emperor pursed his lips and then quietly sat back against the wall. He looked at the top of her head and her fists tightly clenching and unclenching her sleeves. Then he looked down and frowned deep in thought.

{...Am I being too selfish?...}

Once again the two just quietly sat there. After a long while, the Emperor was brought out of his thoughts when Lei Xing put her head on his shoulder and then buried her face in his chest, one of her hands then tightly clenched his sleeve while her other hand clenched the collar of her shirt.

The Emperor blinked and instinctively brought his arm up to wrap around her but then stopped and brought it back down. He could hear her labored breathing and could feel her hot breath on his chest piercing through his clothes, ”Xing er'?”

”I am going to kill...” Lei Xing mumbled. The anger seemed to be the only thing keeping her mind anchored. The one thing she has always had control of was herself, and now because of some crazy person she was having trouble even keeping herself in check. This was even worse than someone trying to poison her. Losing control of the only thing she truly had, made her mad with rage. It was beyond infuriating, she felt humiliated, scared and more importantly, enraged.

”I'm going to kill...” She kept repeating over and over again through labored breaths. The Emperor lightly stroked her hair and softly said, ”En. I'll be sure to find them for you...”

”I said don't touch me.” Lei Xing quietly reminded and the Emperor promptly dropped his hand.

Lei Xing frowned then opened her eyes and looked up at his face for a bit. Then she raised her head up and snuggled into his neck. The Emperor gulped then blinked a few times, knitting his brows as he looked forward and tried to ignore the warm and soft body next to his.

He did feel upset earlier when she was keeping him at a distance but now that she was doing this, it was...becoming difficult. She was currently pressed up against him and only wearing her inner clothes which were quite thin. So he could feel her body, her softness, and it was slowly unnerving him.

He was not allowed to touch her, but she apparently could touch him. Even then he could still feel her. He gulped again then cleared his throat. He decided that it would be better for him to be outside, he could not stay here any longer. He did not want to move her so as not to upset her and so said, ”Um, Xing er', can you please move?”

Instead of moving, Lei Xing snuggled closer and quietly asked, ”Why?” sending a tingling sensation down his spine as he felt her lips and her hot breath move against the skin on his neck as she spoke, causing him to frown.

”Some distance is necessary.” The Emperor swiftly responded, wanting to peel her off but at the same time hold closer. This was a really dangerous situation and she really was not helping.

Lei Xing went rigid and then took a deep breath and raised her head and looked at him. He, on the other hand, looked straight ahead, avoiding her eyes. She frowned at him for a while and then asked in a raspy voice, ”I thought you wanted this?”

The Emperor glanced down at her and then looked back up and quietly responded, ”I do...but not like this.”

Lei Xing frowned and then held his face and brought it down to hers. The Emperor blinked at her but before he could speak, Lei Xing whispered, ”I'm tired.” And then kissed his lips.

The Emperor jerked his head back and held her hand, ”Xing er', I -”

”It's fine, I know what I'm doing...I'm fine.” Lei Xing irritatedly responded and then went to kiss him again. The Emperor knit his brows and blinked a few times but then closed his eyes and returned the kiss, deepening it as he wrapped his arms around her.

{...I've wanted this for so long...}